Walk It Off

Losing baby weight for some women is not a big deal, within a few days, weeks, or months they are back into their "pre-baby" clothes and weight. I guess for my body type I hold onto that baby weight longer then I feel is necessary. These days it seems that there is an expectation to lose the weight quickly or to not gain any weight while you are pregnant. Again, I'm NOT that lucky. There are so many times where I see what my body has turned into and it is very depressing. Before I had children I was (on average when I shoot for a healthy weight...at my skinniest I was 129 but who are we kidding that is NOT healthy for a woman of my height.) 142 lbs and 13-17% body fat. For a woman of 6 ft tall that is my ideal weight. I know that I could get close to that weight but I know that it will be a long time before I get to that weight again and I think it would not even happen until AFTER I'm DONE having children.

For the time being, I'm trying my best to balance regular life and exercises. My goal is to walk 20 miles a week and get in some exercises dvd's that target specific muscle groups. My mile average is right where I want it to be at 20.167.

I've been doing this for almost a month now and I have to say that I'm NOT seeing the weight loss that I was hoping for. BUT I TOTALLY see a difference in how I feel about myself. I feel like I can like myself more even though I'm not as skinny as I need/want to be.

My house isn't as clean as it normally is, my laundry piles are bigger then normal but I'm WAY more patient with my kiddos. In the end of my life, I don't think I will remember if my house was always spotless but I will remember all of the fun time I spent with my kids going to see the horses, farm animals, and going to the park.

I have never been into running before but I'm really enjoying this change. I want to be into this for the long haul. Speaking of which it's time for me to go walk it off.

Must Stay Awake

Do you remember a time before kids, and being married....Was it not that you LIVED for the night life and the weekends?! When me and the hubs were dating we would stay up past 3 and 4 am. I would run home to sleep for an hr or two then go back to school and proceed through the day just like the day before, not feeling any major side effects. Now....I get a few hrs less of sleep and you better watch you because the beast is going to attack! Last night we made, at the time a smart, and hasty choice of getting a new phone which extends our contract another year...Now if I wait 2 months and let our contract run to the end then we can switch to a different carrier for the same amount that we would spend every month BUT get unlimited everything...(really not that important to this post) The point I'm trying to make is...I stressed about what I should do and if I was making the right choice SO much that I did not sleep much...I slept from about 12:40 to 1:30 then from about 2 to 4:15...It got to the point that I knew if I went to sleep I would feel more sleepy then if I just stayed awake. Now I'm feeling grumpy. I have MORE things that I have to get done today...and I have to give the cool phone back....GRRR!!! Both my kids stayed up late and got up early today so that should make things all the more fun right? Nothing a little shopping therapy can't fix right? I just wish that I could make it through the day like it's no big deal that I didn't sleep much at all. There are some good points to getting older...but lets be honest many of them TOTALLY STINK!

Minus 10

That is right! I'm down 10 lbs in less then 2 weeks. I've been eating a really lean diet and walking 2-3 miles every day. Plus working out at home doing exercise videos (almost everyday) I really am pleased with my determination to watch what I eat and to make sure that I don't skip a day on working out. I'm hoping that I can lose another 15 and if I'm really hard core then I'm hoping for a total of another 25 (but I'm giving myself all the way to summer to complete this goal) I know that I have to take it one day at a time, but those are my goals and it feels great to get to make it to the first mile stone in losing the 2nd bebe-bebe weight.

I thought that this clip was funny because I totally do this the only level place for me to get weighed is by my front door, I will strip down to as little as I can and stand on the scale when no one is around. Good thing I always lock the door so Ben can't just walk in and surprise me...and scare our neighbors ;)

Chicken and a Biscuit

Last night the fam and I were watching home movies...we were watching one where kiddo broke his leg. I had a few different extremes of feelings, first I felt all of that same panic where I didn't know how to make things better for my kid, and second as I was reflecting on what happened I thought about how despite how horrific the situation was, we were able to get through it. Not only were we dealing with our child who has already had several surgeries on his legs already but a new born child and my husband had lost his job all in less than a month. One of our many visits to the ER that week my son was so sleepy and so heavily medicated that he wasn't really aware of his surroundings and he started to say the word "Chicken and a Biscuit" (because dad said his cast smelled like it) For the rest of the week, and then some, every time he had a hard time we could say "Chicken and a Biscuit" and it would make him laugh and forget about the pain for a little bit...I want to remember all of the blessings we had during that time, and I want to remember that when things get tough, we can make it though. I think I want to make some kind of sign for my house that says when the going gets tough, the tough get "chicken and a biscuit". I'm so glad that things have returned to normal and that we are blessed to go through the normal ups and downs of life :)

Photo Job

Monday I did a photo shoot of my sister Kaytlynn. I'm still learning about taking pictures and I am NO WHERE near professional grade, but I had a fun time taking her pictures. Kaytlynn has really LONG red hair and she chopped it off minutes after this photo session. I have a lot of pictures to show because I had a fun time, so scan through :) I later went to do some photo work for my little sister Adrielle's boss who owns Lauren Brooks Cosmetiques. It was fun to see all of this fun makeup, I want it all! And it's natural and good for your skin. I have some of her cream foundation, which I'm really excited to use!

I'm waiting....

Ok, so I've been working out as much as I can right now and I'm not losing ANY weight. With an instant gratification type of life that we have all been raised in, it is sooo hard to wait to become thin again. I HATE being fat as much as anyone else does. I need to figure out the best way to get into shape. There are so many videos that say that they are the best way to get into shape, same with equipment. I guess variety is the best thing but it's hard to get a good workout when you have a 5x5 of space. I want to get something that is quick and effective. My body doesn't need this extra weight so I feel like it should just slide right off. I've already made the sacrifice of my body stretching out to have this kid why do I have to stay fat too?

So here are my goals:

I want to lose 25-30 lbs by May-June

I think it is totally do-able. I just need to stay focused on eating healthy. I think that is (like most people) the biggest challenge. The hubs LOVES his junk food (big surprise, that is all he ate growing up!) and it's hard not go get into food like that when he is eating it and keeps it in the house.
I think I will de-junk the house and see how things go from there. Good luck to me! Skinny Me here I come!

Just my frustrations today

So I want to quit nursing because for what ever reason my body does NOT lose weight until I'm done nursing....I feel like it is selfish of me to chose this because I should be doing what is best for my bug-a-roo. But to be honest I HATE looking at myself in the mirror because I feel so fat that the person I see isn't how I feel I should look. Plus I don't have many fat clothes and I don't want to buy more. I'm already eating lean, and trying to get in as many work outs as I can. I wish body fat came off as easy as it gets on. So IF I was to wean my kiddo off onto a bottle what is the best way? I'm not sure what to do. Sometimes with all of the stress and hassle of nursing I wonder if it is even worth it....I feel like I'm really hard on myself so I feel like, maybe if I get on the scale it will not be as bad as I think it is and then I won't beat up on myself so much...but if I get on the scale and it is much worse then I thought it would be I will be more angry and dislike my current situation even more....yeah, getting on the scale....not a good idea. Sorry my sweet baby looks like momma's gonna try to get that baby weight off now. If you have any good tips please leave them!