Photo Job

Monday I did a photo shoot of my sister Kaytlynn. I'm still learning about taking pictures and I am NO WHERE near professional grade, but I had a fun time taking her pictures. Kaytlynn has really LONG red hair and she chopped it off minutes after this photo session. I have a lot of pictures to show because I had a fun time, so scan through :) I later went to do some photo work for my little sister Adrielle's boss who owns Lauren Brooks Cosmetiques. It was fun to see all of this fun makeup, I want it all! And it's natural and good for your skin. I have some of her cream foundation, which I'm really excited to use!

I'm waiting....

Ok, so I've been working out as much as I can right now and I'm not losing ANY weight. With an instant gratification type of life that we have all been raised in, it is sooo hard to wait to become thin again. I HATE being fat as much as anyone else does. I need to figure out the best way to get into shape. There are so many videos that say that they are the best way to get into shape, same with equipment. I guess variety is the best thing but it's hard to get a good workout when you have a 5x5 of space. I want to get something that is quick and effective. My body doesn't need this extra weight so I feel like it should just slide right off. I've already made the sacrifice of my body stretching out to have this kid why do I have to stay fat too?

So here are my goals:

I want to lose 25-30 lbs by May-June

I think it is totally do-able. I just need to stay focused on eating healthy. I think that is (like most people) the biggest challenge. The hubs LOVES his junk food (big surprise, that is all he ate growing up!) and it's hard not go get into food like that when he is eating it and keeps it in the house.
I think I will de-junk the house and see how things go from there. Good luck to me! Skinny Me here I come!

Just my frustrations today

So I want to quit nursing because for what ever reason my body does NOT lose weight until I'm done nursing....I feel like it is selfish of me to chose this because I should be doing what is best for my bug-a-roo. But to be honest I HATE looking at myself in the mirror because I feel so fat that the person I see isn't how I feel I should look. Plus I don't have many fat clothes and I don't want to buy more. I'm already eating lean, and trying to get in as many work outs as I can. I wish body fat came off as easy as it gets on. So IF I was to wean my kiddo off onto a bottle what is the best way? I'm not sure what to do. Sometimes with all of the stress and hassle of nursing I wonder if it is even worth it....I feel like I'm really hard on myself so I feel like, maybe if I get on the scale it will not be as bad as I think it is and then I won't beat up on myself so much...but if I get on the scale and it is much worse then I thought it would be I will be more angry and dislike my current situation even more....yeah, getting on the scale....not a good idea. Sorry my sweet baby looks like momma's gonna try to get that baby weight off now. If you have any good tips please leave them!

My projects as of late...

First, I have to say that I finished my brother's quilt. My camera's battery died so I didn't get any photos before I had to send it off to the MTC, but I'm proud of the work that I did on that blanket. So remember how I wanted to make Nautical stars that looked something like this:Well I have been working on sewing up some stars and this is what I have...10 light blue-dark blue with light orange to dark orange and 10 light green to dark green with light purple to dark purple. I'm also making some stars that are just solid colors. This has been a fun project so far because it is my go to project. I like all of the colors and I am really excited to see how this turns out. I know that it will be a while before I finish this because it's just something to do when I have time and money....(which I have very little of these days)Top view. So I've cut out 5 points of each color (5 different of each; 5 different shades of blue, orange, green and purple) then you cut them in half which makes it so that I have 100 different single pieces to sew and then when I've put them all together I have 10 stars of each set so a total of 20 stars...but I feel like there are so many pieces to put together.These are some of the solid stars I've been working on. I don't know where they are going to fit into the project because I was thinking that I would switch the colors up and make some stars that were purple and yellow and blue and green that are the nautical kind.
On another note, I thought I would NOT be able to go to school at all this semester because of the hubs taking the LSAT one last final time but it looks like I will be able to go part time. I won't be finished by the end of summer but at least I will be a few classes closer to my goal. I have to give myself credit because it does get really tricky when I have to have lessons ready for work, Ethan schooling, my homework done for school and tests studied for, on top of regular house work, laundry while nursing a 5 month old baby. I need to remind myself that I was blessed to have kids while I had the energy to take care of them. Schools will always be around where my kids are growing up NOW, and I really don't want to miss out on the important things that are happening in their lives.

Wanting What Others Have

I was the first of my friends to get married, and the first to have kids. Now when I was "planning" my life, I thought that I would go through school have a good career, find a good man to marry, work for 3-5 years and THEN think about having kids. But that wasn't in store for me. I finished some school, married the Hubs, graduated with my Cert. in Dental Technology, and had a pretty good job to help me get through school. My SURPRISE, aka Kid #1 came even after we were being EXTRA careful to NOT have kids. So chalk it up to "It was meant to be..". Because we had some extra complication with kid #1 (bi-lateral club foot) it was best that I stayed at home with him so I could be there for EVERY surgery. My kid needed a MOM not a baby sitter, since we had a lot of family support, staying at home was something we thought we could do and it would be best if I put my schooling on hold until we were in the clear. I've done as much school as I could do when I could. Now a mom of 2 I am NOT even close to finishing school. Most of my friends are done with school and starting to buy houses and start families. I know things aren't always going to go as planned but I really want to be done with school. I was looking at my credits and I am only half way there. Ben is going to be in school for the next 3 years (at least) and so odds are I will have to once again put my goal of finishing my education on hold. I don't think that there is anything wrong with being "just a mom", because being a mom takes a LOT more then one might think. I know that I feel better about myself and more accomplished by having more education under my belt. This next semester I will be taking night classes and I will be gone 3 nights a week. It seems so hard to peel myself away from my kids, especially since I have my baby who is so new. I don't want to miss out on the important things that will be happening to them but I also want to be able to be some-what of the woman that I had planned on being.

Cherry Red

So I have a major fear of speaking in front of people. (Which is odd because I'm such a chatter box) I don't like having attention where I know people are staring at me, waiting for me to finish what I am trying to say. I was in church (Relief Society) When a question was asked that I had an answer to. I start my answer and as I notice all eyes on my I start to go red. I don't know why I go red, I didn't feel that nervous. Just knowing I'm going red makes me turn red even darker and faster. The blood flow to my face an instant give-away to my insecurity of speaking. Seriously sooo lame! I wish I didn't get so embarrassed, answering a question in front of people I know shouldn't be such a big deal. Sometimes when I know I'm going to be talking in front a big group my lip will twitch, which just makes me feel more embarrassed. Why is speaking in front of people so scary?!

First one completed! This was my practice one so I could figure out what to do. Have to say I'm kinda proud of myself. Never knew I had it in me :) It's not perfect by ANY standard but Carter I'm sure will like it. The back is made with this super soft Minky star fabric. (I know stars...but I can't help it) It took me like 3 hrs from cutting to sewing it all together. Not bad esp when I'm a mom and made dinner, did laundry, and kept the house clean on top of everything else.